The simple truth that I affect the heart of the Lord has really been messing me up lately. How could I follow Jesus for years and miss this simple fact. I know He affects me, but I've been floored by the truth that the LORD, the Creator and Sustainor of all ife, the author of salvation, the source of everything that is good and pure and just, the one who sits on the throne forever, loves me and if affected by me. My love brings Him joy. It is ridiculous. I can{t get over it, I don't think I want to.

Jinotega has been a lot of different things to me. We've been here for about a week and a half now. In leaving Los Cedros I feel like I walked away from a battle that I still wanted to fight, but in being here I see that the Lord's timing is good and He knows me better than I know myself. With time to just be I've realized that I'm burnt out like never before. I love the schedule here and the kids are seriously a delight to spend time with. These kids are funnier than most, maybe it's because of the language barrier, but I laugh a lot throughout the day at the things they say and do. I am in need of rest, yesterday the Lord brought me back to Matt 11:28-30.

Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.

I love that Jesus offers Himself, not sleep or a relaxing vacation, but Himself, as our resting place. I am so thirsty for that.